This is my brand new old adoption blog.

This week Kevin and I went to a two-day adoption seminar hosted by Open Adoption and Family Services in Portland, Or.

This was, I think, our first step on a long journey toward being parents. We have talked about how transparent we are comfortable being with this process, and have agreed that it would be best to wait until we are further along to announce anything. Yet I am already feeling long-held emotions come to the surface that surround this issue. And that is why I am choosing to write.

I never realized how much it hurt to see people such as my siblings and friends bear and raise children of their own while I continued on, trying to find the place in my life that would allow me to be a parent.

Of course I made my own choices along the way, which influenced that. Derailing my career for culinary school, and choosing to end several relationships certainly delayed my parenthood aspirations. 

I can accept that.

 I can also accept the challenges; financial and emotional, that will come. I hope we can find a way to afford this process sooner than later. And I hope that we are one of the lucky ones who are chosen sooner, rather than later.

I'm just glad I have a partner in this.